Saturday, April 08, 2006


In spite the impending midterm exam and reports, I still don't feel like preparing. The search for a summer lab slot has been futile, with no ideas what to do next. As for my GRE, I'm still headlessly memorizing vocabulary, with poor achevement. With summer just around the corner, I'm in somesort of panic, feels kinda like I'm going to screw up my future this year. Don't know how to go on, and I find my self avoiding my problems. I began deleting the unacheveable entries in my todo list, and ignoring others. I am franticly riding my bike as much as I can. I borrowed a book of Edgar Allan Poe's poems, to enchant myself, to feel the helplessness in The Raven.

I now see emptyness and fear in my future; I feel the weight of the world on my back. Don't know what to do.

Quoth the Raven "Nevermore."


Anonymous said...

everyone have the same feel of the fear of unknown are not alone.(i'm another one who don't know how to go on and avoid problems>"<).
once, someone send this article to me
maybe it will help you feel better.

intellidryad said...

Thanks for your comments, great article, thanks.

My "fear of the future" isn't the typical kind, though. It's simply because I screwed up on something important for my future.