Sunday, December 04, 2005

Change of mood (calmness from craziness)

The last of my midterm exams finally finish this past week(which I totally screwed up).

Right after, some friends and I went to a park for a great turkey dinner. It was absolutly great. Not only the turkey it self and the stuffing inside. It was the whole complete package, with wine, french bread, cranberry jelly, gravy and punpkin pie, all together, made it a terrific dinner. It's also about getting together with all the great classmates that we normaly seldom get together with due to the diverse classes we take. After the dinner, we began gossiping about people's "process" in their relationships. After hearing several people's storys(some failed, others are just false rummers), I started to think about my self, and that made the blues come back at me. Yeah, they had recent stories of pursuing mates, what about me? I gave up, like when? Almost a year ago? Oh well, drank a lot of alcohol, trying to see why people in a bad mood likes to drink, wondering if it'd help. But nothing happened, I was still blue, still had a clear mind, and my hand and feet are still icy cold in the blowing wind of the night. So then all I could do then was listen quietly, and occasionally lie back on the soft grass and look into the sky, and , crap, there was only one single star I could see.

The next two days of the week, I was busy working on my experiment class report. That report by it self took me 13 hours to finish. But hay, it still feels great to at least accomplish something. And yeah, being busy some times do make you forget of the sad stuff.

Weird, I guess the feeling's starting to wear off. That particular name is showing up less and less in my mind. Not only did the busy days keep my mind off there, but I guess I'm starting to let a name of some beautiful comic charactor take over that place. Hehe, never thought that reading a comic on relationships would have this effect. But yeah, I guess when I have no targets, letting a fake name fill my mind at least feels better then thinking about the girl who didn't choose me. And besides, that girl in the comic is also cute...

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

抱歉看到這麼多的感情文實在忍不住想回
其實我也搞不懂為什麼大家都在追求感情
"為什麼想交男女朋友呢?"
"交男女朋友的意義是什麼?"
時間到了 生理機制?
為結婚生子 延續後代?(最基本的生物原則)
尋找一個心靈的避風港?
追求愛情的甜蜜?
訪問過無數的人 無數的答案
但是我始終迷惘
也許我還未準備好過兩人的生活
也許我愛好自由更勝於感情

愛情跟友情還是不同的吧..?
感情深刻 卻也摔的重
感情總容易讓人活在"印象"("幻想"?)當中
等質交換 得到感情相對於必須失去其他東西
面對身邊無數憧憬愛情的人
面對依然迷惘的自己
我決定繼續等待時間給我答案

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抱歉本文沒條理也沒什麼內容
chroma

intellidryad said...

說穿了就是腦中的荷爾蒙不平衡XD

不過老實說在大三蠟燭兩頭燒(重課+實驗室)的生活中,似乎也只有剩餘幻想的時間而已

嗯,謝天謝地心情恢復平穩

Anonymous said...

I wanna share some of my experiences.
There is NO EQUIVALENT EXCHANGE at all
You should pay more than what u want to get it, and you might lose it as easily as getting rid of some garbages